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I learned Strength in 2017 to accept that it’s My time to Soar in 2018!

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On December 31, 2017

In Blessing of God, Personal

 

2017 has thought me many lessons. With all that I been through the last 5 years, didn’t think there could be anything left to attack me. But I started this year under a heavyweight. A weight meant to break and destroy me. And as the days continue the weight grew heavier. The biggest lesson was I was not built to break. That as long as I put my faith in Jesus, that He would bring me through each and every dark and painful night that I faced. Yes, I received some bruises along the way, but I wasn’t destroyed, crushed or silenced.

If asked, I would have never thought I could have survived the varies stumbling blocks and pitfalls that I have faced in my life. But at the end of 2017, I not only survived, I overcame each storm by the Blood.

Now in 2018, it is my time to Soar. My time to tell my story, my time to set the record straight about what each of us is truly borne to do. As I look for guidance from my Heavenly Father, I know this is truly my time to break every negative stereotype and ceiling that was created to hold me back and silenced me.

An awesome woman of God shared Ecclesiastes 3, A time for everything, to close out this year pray meeting. I truly believed that there is a specific time for every activity in life. And my time is now.

A TIME TO BE BORN AND A TIME TO DIE,

It is time for the ministry that God has a place in you to be born. Just it is time for playing small to die.

A TIME TO PLANT AND A TIME TO UPROOT,

It time to uproot all the negativity that has been fed to you as truth and time to plant seeds of God’s word of healing, abundance, and prosperity.

A TIME TO KILL AND A TIME TO HEAL,

It’s time to kill off every vine that has attached itself to strangle and entangle you. Use this time heal the wounds that were created to kill with God’s soothing balm.

A TIME TO TEAR DOWN AND A TIME TO BUILD,

It is time to tear down every wall and partition that shut out the light of God’s word and build a gate that separate one from the destruction of the evil in the world. A gate to the sanctuary of God’s grace and peace.

A TIME TO WEEP AND A TIME TO LAUGH,

   A TIME TO MOURN AND A TIME TO DANCE,

The time to weep and mourn is no more, now we will dance and laugh at the glorious blessing of God’s love.

A TIME TO SCATTER STONES AND A TIME TO GATHER THEM,
   A TIME TO EMBRACE AND A TIME TO REFRAIN FROM EMBRACING,

Time has come to leave the scattered directions of others behind, to refrain from embracing that which was not meant for you. Embrace the promises of God and gather your arsenal of weapons in your heart of God’s word.

A TIME TO SEARCH AND A TIME TO GIVE UP,
    A TIME TO KEEP AND A TIME TO THROW AWAY,

The time has come to give up on hopes and dreams that have led to misery and discouragement, to throw away that which brings no value to your being or purpose. Search for the truth of God’s word and keep His promises ever before you.

A TIME TO TEAR AND A TIME TO MEND,

Now tear up every judgment used against you and mend the brokenness of a dying people all around you.

A TIME TO BE SILENT AND A TIME TO SPEAK,

Silence the noise around you that may hear the quiet whisper of instruction and direction, that when the time comes to speak, you will deliver the very word that God has given you to nourish on.

A TIME TO LOVE AND A TIME TO HATE,
   A TIME FOR WAR AND A TIME FOR PEACE.

The time of war is upon us to destroy each weapon sent to fill this world with self-destructive hate. But the time has come for every believer to share with a dying world the love of God and the peace that God can only give to those that call on the same of His son, Jesus Christ of Nazareth.

 

 

Difficulty seeing one’s self accurately…..

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On November 26, 2017

In Family & Relationships, Forgiveness

With all that I have accomplished, with the varies accommodations and compliments I have received in the past and even to this day, seeing myself and abilities as others see me is difficult. It more than wanting to keep a humble perspective of myself to be used by God. It’s that my mission is to give my all and do my best regardless of what I do, but if asked to describe myself I can’t.

I was just speaking today that publishing my novel and becoming an author of multiple books, is one of those things on my bucket list created by my mother’s many comments of want I would never be able to do. Many of thing that she said I would never be able to do I have accomplished. Many of the things she claimed I would never be able to do, I have done. The only comments I haven’t proven wrong yet is that I am unlovable. After my second failed marriage by a man who could not accept the nature of his sons without blaming me, I know that he once loved me, but his love wasn’t stronger than his ego and pride. But because his loved changed, finding someone who can love me for eternity is on my bucket list to overcome.

As we heal from past relationship, as from ceiling unfairly spoken over us in our youth, and trauma in our life, we learn to heal from within making our lives filled with abundant blessings.

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Faithfully Serving an Awesome God

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On October 2, 2017

In Blessing of God, Family & Relationships, Giving thanks

I serve an awesome God.
One who sends shelter in the midst of a raging storm.
One who sends prayer warriors out of the blue that prays over you and your family in such a way that they give confirmation to things that they aren’t even aware of.
One who gives you a vision three years ago and bring everything together to supply all your needs at this point and time.
One who has allowed your spirit align with a coach to mentor you where you are at. A coach that gave an awesome prayer this morning about Faith. The one thing left for me to cling to this morning.
Faith sustains when all else fails!

 

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. (Hebrew 11:1) Thank you Greatness for those words. Faith is knowing that the words I received in my spirit this weekend and even this morning is living proof that God’s words will not return to him void. That the motion of the Holy Spirit this morning is the result of the spiritual battles being fought on my behalf. As when Elisha spoke in 2 Kings 6:16 to his servant, “Don’t be afraid,” …“Those who are with us are more than those who are with them.” I rest in knowing those very words holds true today. For the army of Lord has encamped around me and my boys and are protecting us from every fiery arrow, and we will not be consumed.  
I rest and believe in the Man that created the universe out of nothing except His word. I trust and believe this battle is not mine but the Lords. I will not sit in the council of disbelievers nor will seek revenge on those being used to stop and disqualify my calling and purpose. I will trust the Lord with my whole soul knowing that I will not be crushed, nor broken! But as the victory will belong to the Lord, He will elevate me to the mountain tops.
Through it all, I will trust in Jesus and power of His might. I will trust in the Lord through this journey walk,  serving and praising Him at all times. 

Psalm 91

1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust.”

3 Surely he will save you
    from the fowler’s snare
    and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
    and under his wings you will find refuge;
    his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
    nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
    nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
    ten thousand at your right hand,
    but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
    and see the punishment of the wicked.

9 If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
    and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
    no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
    to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
    so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
    you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
    I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
    I will be with him in trouble,
    I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
    and show him my salvation.”

A Birthday Prayer Wish for You

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On July 24, 2017

In Family & Relationships, Parent Support

On this day if I had a typical family, regardless where I was at or what was scheduled for this day, I would have called my mother first thing in the morning to wish her happy birthday. But I am not in a typical family nor do a have a normal of loving relationship with my mother. But to honor her I give you who suffered with no love and plenty of abusive to go around a birthday prayer wish to free you from prison.

It has been 6 months since I moved from my family home. Six months since I last spoken with the woman that gave me life, the woman that didn’t protect me from the abusive ways of her family, the woman that denied me a relationship with my father, the woman who abused me as a child and attacked my child.For over the last six months I would tell other children why forgiveness for my mother ways wasn’t an excuse nor was it sugar coating what happened. But a way for me to live a productive life free from pain and stress of carrying the weight of her guilt as my own. Accepting who and how my mother is and her ability to do no better than what she knew how to do. It was my chance to break the cycle of generational curses that have plague my family for years and raise my children in the truest meaning of love and respect as my Lord instructed me to do in His Holy Word. Forgiving my mother was my get of jail card from remaining imprisoned by her and living a free and liberated life with my Father in Heaven.

In the 48 years of my life, first out of fear of her than out of understanding the word of God, I have and continued to honored my mother. Though I have come to a place I must love and honor from afar, I continued to pray for her daily. On this my mother’s 79th birthday, my prayer for other children whose mother or father was less than ideal. Who survived through the abuse, the incest, the neglect and lack of love inflicted by your parent is that you forgive them for your days to be long. Accept that they could not do any better than what they were capable of doing and being. Accept that in spite of the challenges, the difficulty, and the scares you received, you were not broken nor destroyed, but you are an overcomer and a better person for that reason. Understand that as an adult the paint brush is now in your hands to paint the canvas of your life in beautiful and vibrant colors for your tomorrows.It is hard knowing the person responsible for my life I cannot loving honor on this day directly. But by living my life in love and raising my children pleasing unto my Lord I am honoring her better than if we were together.

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!

Praying to the Next Level

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On May 6, 2017

In Blessing of God, Giving thanks, Personal

The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective. As one travel to their next level, they should continue to see the will of the Lord. 

As I stand looking back over the works that have been done over the past 22 months I stand in awe at the mighty and loving hands of my Lord and Savior. Many would question my description of the past months if they knew my story, but through it all, I have been blessed. Through every phase, God’s mighty hand has guided and protected me and my boys.  As my petition to find a house of Eli to care for my oldest son can to fruition, though my heart was heavy I knew it was the best place for him to be. To see the progress and growth he has made during this time is just amazing.

As I migrated from the Bronx to Queens, though the I will not lie it has been painful at times, but even through the pain we have been blessed and protected. The doors that have been closed, the healing the have taken place and the lessons learned were all pertinent to where he is taking me.

Earlier this year with when I went West instead of East for a spin, God continued to protect and provide for me until I was back on proper course. And since the End of January, God has made provision for all of our needs.  So why as I embarked on this next phrase should I take control?

Let’s Pray

Heavenly Father, I love you, because You have loved me before my first request for a hug. You have loved me when it was stated that I would not live. You have loved me when everyone thought I would mentally and physically crippled for life. You have loved me when my family has abused and/or forsaken me. You love me through trials and tribulations, errors and growing pains. Lord, I thank You and praise You.

Lord forgive me when I asked You to guide and went on a head You. Lord forgive me when my words haven’t aligned with the Word. Lord forgive me when love and kindness were overshadowed by hurt and disappointment. Lord as I continue to look toward the prize, expectantly waiting for Your promise to come to pass, I continue to surrender my will over to You.

Lord thank you for providing for my family as we travel this journey of life. I asked for your continuous to guide me to the place where You would have us call home. You know our need and our petition. I asked that for Your will to be done and plan to be manifested in the coming days. 

In Jesus Namen Amen

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Child Abuse

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On March 15, 2017

In Awarness, Parent Support

Child abuse is not only physical but emotional and mental. When you curse with profanity toward your child and before them, you are the who needs to be slapped when they repeat it. As you call your child every name but that which was written in on their birth certificate, understand changing their name changes them.  Using names that are degrading and hurtful over time,  the children believes these names are who they are. Done throughout their life, identity crisis will be a true issue in their future. When you expect a 4/5-year-old to manage as a 1o/11 or same as you, you stunt their growth and learning process.

Children are children. Yes, we must teach them, yes we must correct their behavior to learn right from wrong. But please make sure you know right from WRONG way correct and teach. Cursing, yelling, slapping and name call of a young child is abuse. Modeling the exact behavior before your child you correct from exhibiting, understand every child learns from what they see and then from what you say.

In becoming a mother or father, no longer is the status quo just to repeat what how your parents raised you. You may question why because you said you grow up ok. But have you? You have one or two children, unwedded and in some cases has an absentee partner. Your education is least if you completed high school. You’re living off your parents. The newest man willing to sell you food/shelter for sex or you are in a homeless shelter. You have no vision for your life but what your body can bring you. No wish to do more because you only know what you were instructed as a child. Unable to change your mantle because now you are an adult. You are all knowing and no one can tell you something better.

Without knowledge of the struggle our ancestor overcame, we are compelled to repeat them. The Word state in Proverb 29:18a “When people do not accept divine guidance, they run wild.” (NLT) We are living with a generation running wild and abusing all generation coming behind them. After years of Kings that strayed away from the Word of God, King Hezekiah return the people of Israel to live before the Lord and His decrees. It is time for many Hezekiah’s’ to rise. Rise in the spirit of LOVE to teach and guide a lost generation how to be young ladies and gentlemen, how to love and respect themselves, how to be the light for the next generation.

 

Life Plans thwarted by Reality

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On March 2, 2017

In Blessing of God, Personal

Each month this year I said I would at least make a post to stay active and relevant to what was going on around me and in my life. However, the first two months of this year has been anything as planned or expected. Goals and plans that were planned out for the first quarter which was superseded by a reality that couldn’t be thwarted.

Since the start of this year, I came to understand that nothing happens without a reason and purpose. That God is in control no matter what goes down. But regardless of what does happens, no matter good or bad, God will work everything out for those that calls on His name.

If someone else traveled the road I have been on these last two years at least, it would have caused them to give up or escaped through drugs or alcohol or commit suicide. I will confess, I am glad I have a strong belief that my Heavenly Father will provide in spite of where I am at because if I was a drinker I am not sure even the 12 step program would have pulled me back.

I have learned what it means to be forsaken by one’s parent that despises the very breath you breathe and the child of your womb. Yet instead of feeling hate and being angry, I realize that her hate is hers. There are issues in her life from childhood that has ruled how she lived the majority of her 78+ years of life. Situations that has festered and turned her into an angry, bitter woman that could never love or accept her own children or grandchildren as a gift instead of a commodity to be used and control. As I walked away this final time, I leave with prayers she finds the peace and happiness she craves. However, I know money and property will never give her what she seeks nor could control others. I pray for her soul and her mind. But I can not and will not allow the demonic spirit that has controlled her life, control or rule mine. The Word of God states in Psalm 37:25 “I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread.” A word I can testify to as she closed her doors before me. No matter where I found myself, I can state that the blessing of God has preceded me and His favor has been upon me.

The road I am on is difficult, nor do I take it for granted. In all truth, I have been blessed in my lack as when I was in plenty. I can say I understand Peter’s words when he said in Philippians 4:10-13, “I rejoiced greatly in the Lord that at last, you renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you were concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well-fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.  I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”

How can I sing the songs of the Lord while in a foreign land? There is no land my Lord can not be, no place He can not meet me. So in a crystal castle to a room to that gives me shelter, I will sing praises to my Lord, I will sing of His goodness and loving mercies. I will glorify his name in all that I do. I will share his wondrous work with all that cares to listen.

The question that has pestered me most, besides when will once again view life from the mountain top, is how do I bring God’s healing to the bleeding hearts that are around me. Nothing just happens and where I am isn’t just happenstance. God ordain me to be where I am today, for His purpose of teaching and stretching me, but more so to be used to share His word with the lost and misguided. Be careful what you pray for! Especially be careful when you tell Aba Father here am I to be used by Him. You will never know the path that He will take you. (For those that understand this sidebar: I believe that our Father has lost His mind in but how I am so thankful in spite of that He has me on His mind). For years I have known the calling on my life and at one point thought I knew what direction my life would take to allow me to walk in said calling. But what I thought was the straight path has had various streams, lakes, and rivers that must be travel before I am prepared to reach the ocean. Paths that has strengthened my skills and understanding to serve as an Authentic witness.

I once told a group of young ministers speaking on life, many that I could have been my sons, you may know the Word, and the Lord can use to speak into someone’s situation, but until you have a personal testimony, you are only a speaker. TD Jakes stated one of his sermons and echoed just today by a friend. You can’t minister to me about something you never experienced. You can’t understand my pain if you never experience pain. In my 48 years of life, I have survived and overcame many obstacles. Obstacles that should have killed me years ago if God didn’t carry through many of those storms, giving me the experience and understanding to speak to others who find themselves on similar paths

Soon I will share this journey, but I will say this when James wrote in verse 5:16b (My favorite New Testament Book) “The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. (KJV)” He meant “The prayer of a person living right with God is something powerful to be reckoned with. (MSG). For the prayers have carried me, sustain me and is pushing me into my greatness. The teaching has given me wisdom needed for such a time.

I will continue to allow Christ to take the wheel and pilot my journey into His abundance for me. I will continue to walk obediently as the spirit guides me ministering and encouraging others to hold on and believe a change is coming. I know I need to step further from the pool of fear to reach others that need to hear my story and current journey.

A change in the wind is coming, with it, the blessing will flow.

2/28/17

Remembering Grandma’s Birthday

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On January 28, 2017

In Awarness, Parent Support, Personal

Forty years ago I was moved to NYC to be with my grandmother this month. For today would have been her birthday. If she was with us she would have been 112 years old. But nine months after bringing her baby girl home she went to sleep in the Lord.

Unlike most, I can’t speak on years of her love, kindness, and teaching. For I only had nine months to know her. Nine months to wonder why did she cause me come here to place my brother nor I fit in. However unlike most would choose to remember their grandmother, I remember the hell that broke loose or free after her death. Hell, that was because of jealousy, hatred, egos and power. Issues that were hidden, push under the rug, sent south to hide or banned from one’s home. Issues that has plagued generations after generations to this day.

Our community, my people don’t talk much about the past. Our communities hide away from incest and sexual abuse and rape of children, illegitimate children, abortions and criminal misconduct of generations old. Generation of old hide true birth records, criminal records, and true family trees. These hidden truths have caused future generations to unravel, breakdown, or be destroyed by the truth as they are revealed.

To stop this generation curse today we must raise our children in truth and love. We must teach them self-respect, respect of others, and discipline. Only by this can we turn the past into stepping stones giving our future generations hope.

As I approach my birthday, that I share in the month of my maternal grandmother, I seek Godly wisdom in the care and growth of my children. For no weapon of the past will overshadow their future. For the true Word of the Lord will be taught and lived before them. They will be victorious.

Hester Virginia Jefferson-Fields Finney, you may have realized your errors, or as your child had selfish motives for bringing her back home. Whichever is the case your grand and great grand+ are suffering from your actions or lack of? Your children have followed in the precepts of the youthful teachings and have caused at least two generations pain and suffering. The suffering that was not of their own doing or understanding and until they say the ‘the buck stops here’ and move forward taking the understanding we do have the true knowledge of the only Living God and rebuild our lives.

To say Rest In Peace as you watched the actions of your child that have yet to join you, sounds strange. Yet as the rich man who sought to warn his siblings of the error of their ways before they join him, you nor can her siblings can warn them of the judgment that must be faced. My prayer for your family is that they all seek after the Lord taught in the Gospel of Jesus Christ and abandon the gospel of the Finney clan that they have converted to the truth.

Your granddaughter,
1/28/17

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Why Christmas is the Season for Forgiveness

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On December 22, 2016

In Blessing of God, Forgiveness

“Father, forgive them for they know not what they do”. Familiar scriptures we recognize the death of our Savior on the cross. This holiday season as we recognize the birth of our Savior, forgiveness is even more required. See over 2000 years ago God’s love for us so much that He sent His son through the birth of virgin to live among us to teach us how we were created to live. A son that died on the cross to pay the sin debt for our life. To give us a path to seek forgiveness for our actions far from pleasing to our Heavenly Father. A path without the blood offering that has proven insufficient price.

Forgiveness the highest form of love

Why is forgiveness needed?    

In Matthew 6:14-15, it states “For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.  But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins”. In Matthew 5: 23-24 we learn “So if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there before the altar and go. First, be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift”. Mark states in Chapter 11: 25-26 “And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.”

This season the greatest gift we can give in honor to the birth of our Savior is love towards one another. In loving each other we must forgive them for the hurt and pain they have caused us. We must seek forgiveness from those that have strife against us. Through this action then we can be free to give a sinless gift to worship the Savior. Then by offering this gift, our God can forgive us of the act we have committed against His word.

Remember forgiveness is not for those that have offended. Forgiveness is to allow the connection to Creator and creation to stay in sync without disruption. As a Pastor stated in s recent lesson, “God will not hold me responsible for the action you have toward me, but will hold me responsible for my behavior towards you.” Lack of forgiveness should not be on the of marks held against you.

This season, offer your apology to those that hold unforgiveness towards you. Then you forgive those that have hurt, harmed, or shamed you. With all of your heart try to bridge the gap that separates your family and unite once again in love. But if they choose not to forgive and let go, you let go and let God have his way. Knowing your heart is pure against them and move on with the grace of our Lord.

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Freedom of Forgiveness

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Holiday Depression and Emotional Crisis

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On December 4, 2016

In Awarness, Depression

Mother-child suicide/murder is one of the least publicized crimes in America. But, year after year these numbers are in the double digits across the United States. Many times depression is the route cause for such a tragic end. 

Families members, friends, parents and especially spouses of moms of young children or special need children, needs someone to care for them. They need to know after taking care of everyone else; they have an outlet and time to relax. Many times the pressure of motherhood is more than she can bear on top of being the caretaker of the home, parents, and everyone else throughout her go to daily life.

As we enter this last season of the year, it becomes difficult for those suffering from depression.  The expectation to meet the family tradition of cooking, hosting, gift purchasing with little time to rest adds an extra level of anxiety. This left unchecked can lead to tragic consequences. That shouldn’t be.Emotional Crisis

Many times the signs of depression are clear but too often the moms are informed: “suck it up and handle it!” Too many times those in the closest relationship allow work and personal obligations place blinders of the fact of  negative change in behavior within the mom.

Depression is real. Postpartum depression is dangerous and doesn’t end as quick as it starts. This holiday, look out for moms who distracted, tired and withdrawn. Offer a mom time to relax while you care for her children. Give the gift of life back to a mom suffering this season.

Though they haven’t labeled this tragic case, the fact is a mom and two young precious boys are now dead. Why didn’t anyone hear her cries for help?

This season is a hard time of the year for many people. Suicide Hotline 800-273-TALK (8255).

Article of Help!

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