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Don’t Give up!

These words were given to me to share with one, but after I sent them, I realize that they are for all of us. 

See, as God is moving to do something new in each of our lives, the enemy has set up to distract us from the path we should walk. But the enemy uses those that are close to us to trip us up, to get us frustrated, to distract us. To take our focus off of God’s promises and focus on man’s reality.

But this is a new day, in spite of how we feel we will not give up, we will not be discouraged, we will stand firm, we will push forward, we will bring forth the vision and mission God has placed in us.  We will be the leader and example of proper ethics and morals. We will show others how the hand of God is moving through us and over us. We will “do all things in decency and in order to the Glory of the Father.”

But we must believe that our best is yet to come. God needs our full obedience and trust, regardless of the way one feels or things look. He wants us to find rest in Him, to renew our strength. Our power is in God and from God, not of our own.  

Our power is in our Voice, now declare and decree over yourself the promises of God. 

Remember, you got this, and the Father has you. Just believe that your best is yet to come. 

Let this day be the first day you walk in divine authority over life, your purpose, your destiny.

Happy Birthday

On the eve of Another Year's Blessing

As I embark on the eve of my 51st birthday, today’s Small Straws encapsulates my view of the last 50. 

I have often spoken that each lesson, each experience was a class in God’s University of Biblical Living. A university I entered on the day I accepted Christ as my Savior. Twenty-two years ago today, I made the public confession through Baptism under the pastoral guidance of Dr. Curtis T Harding. 

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future, Jeremiah 29:11 NIV.”

From the teaching of St. Albans Baptist Church; to its continuation at Walker Memorial Baptist Church and Evangelism Explosion Ministry, to the education from Nyack College Biblical Studies, the foundational teaching for God’s University was set. 

See, God knew the path I would walk before my birth. When He knitted me in my mother’s womb, the syllabus I would need was created. 

“Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book, Psalm 139:16 NIV.”

These courses were designed to ensure that the phrase “Your Voice Is Your Power,” is more than the slogan of Beautiful Village Inc. But a complete embodiment of me. God has given me a voice to speak for His hurt and crying daughters whose voice has been silenced. 

Have I passed each class with a perfect “A”? Though I strive to walk according to God’s word, only Jesus was able to be of no sin. I have made mistakes. I have veered off the narrow road a time or two. But, my loving Father as redirected my missteps as He heard my cry for forgiveness and restoration. 

“Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:13-14 NIV.”

So no man can stand judgment over my life. No one can hold my future as a ransom for my past. Each day I strive to meet the will of God. I seek to be a light in these troubling dark times. 

So tomorrow, I will be promoted to the next grade. Tomorrow I will acknowledge the spiritual muscles that have been developed over the last 50 years and use them as a launching pad into my future. 




JANUARY 30, 2020


Do not waste time on regrets from the past. What’s done is done! Rather, use past experiences to gain wisdom and to modify your views and behavior presently and for the future. Beating yourself up will do no good. Set yourself to seek Me for the best way to deal with every situation you encounter, says the Lord. Position yourself to exhibit My nature.

Romans 8:1 There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.

2020 Wish for You

 May this year bring you true love, success and the joy of the Lord. Trust and believe that God is at the helm of your life and everything that you are able to believe will come to pass and watch Him exceed it a million times more than you can imagine. My percentage scale fluctuates but never below 51%, for I am trusting that 2020 is the year that all the dreams and promises God placed in me will come true. 

Have faith in the vision God has given you and join me in walking into this new decade, a new year of promise and prosperity in health, family, business and wealth. I am believing for God to increase my territory, to make me the head and not the tail, the giver and not the borrower. To raise me above the ranks to the destiny He has called me to. This also my belief and prayer for each of you.

May 2020 be the fulfillment of all dreams and desire according to the one and true Kings of Kings, our Creator, and Savior. My prayer for each of us, in the matchless name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

Be strong and steady so that you can find your place of stability.  I am your Stabilizer.  Look to Me for direction, guidance, and wisdom.  I will show you where to go and how to get there, says the Lord.  Put your faith and trust in Me.  Proverbs 14:26 In the fear of the Lord there is strong confidence, and His children will have a place of refuge.

HAPPY NEW YEAR make 2020 the year the decade of promises fulfilled.

Understanding My Gift of Writing

This morning I had a conversation that confirmed so much for me. Faitherpreneur weekend 2k19 gave me clarity in many areas and blessing in others. Though each, I pray for God’s guidance with every decision I have to make. However, one consistent prayer keeps returning.  

Repeat Request

Now many will say once you asked God for something, you should leave it and trust God to handle it. For some that may work. However, I remember the story in the bible where a woman would repeatedly to the judge for the same request until one day because the judge was tired of hearing the same plea, granted her petition. The moral the writer, Luke 18: 4-6, was trying to get forth is that God would surely give the prayers of His children who cry out to Him day and night. For this reason, until I see the manifestation of God’s work to completion, my prayer remains the same.  

With all that God is doing in my life, I repeatedly asked God to clear my mind and time that I may write. Today’s conversation confirmed something I suspect but goes against the understanding and process of many. For many people, their book is just a conclusion of something else. Many will tell you that writing is not profitable. You write only to give creditability for work. However, I always knew that my essays would be the gift that makes room for me, and my speaking would be the conclusion. Today, such was shared. 

Author vs Writer

It was shared with me that there are authors, and then there are writers. Looking up the webster definition of an author, it is one who originates or creates something; the writer of a literary work (such as a book); while the definition of a writer is one that writes. Using the definitions of both that would refer to those that write books, she explained it further for me to understand who I am for me to own and walk-in fully.  

Today there are many authors, those that write a book to give information. Those that share their story as the bases why they are now doing what they are doing. Sharing a lesson to help others who may be going through something similar.  

A writer is someone who can take information and share it in such a way that grabs other’s attention while delivering a message; one whose passion is in creating manuscripts or scripts out the same information an author would use to write their book. I am that writer! 

Writing is my gift

As I set down to fulfill a request, I came across a piece that I penned in April 2016 entitled “What do I Love?” this question came from two challenges that I took in 2016, while I was seeking my purpose. In it, I wrote about my passion, rejection, and hurt that came from me writing. In earnest last year, I started speaking the truth over myself and not the lies that have were spoken over or into me over the years of what I could/should never do.  

After years of writing secretly, my mission is to share these thoughts with others so that they will have an impact on my readers. As God directs both me the writer to write for those whom He would lead to reading it.  

As I continue to follow my passion, the discovery continues to amaze me.  

Time to Write.  

Until next time, I will continue  

Touching Lives & Making a Difference!  Uplifting one spirit; One smile at a time! 

A Loveless Mother’s Forgiveness

Many sons and daughters this Mother’s Day, longs for another day to be able to hear their mother say “I Love You”, for a chance to be held in their mother’s arms again. To have that one last chance to hear their voice, but instead must live on memories.

For many Mother’s Days, I have written letters to my mother. Letters that allowed me to express words that I could never share with her directly. Words that give me release from the pain of her absence, release from memories that leave me wanting and crying for what could never be.


What do you say to the children whose mother was just the vessel that gave birth to them? What words of comfort do you share that relieves the pain of missing a mother’s love that they may never experience even though they were raised in the same home with her.


Fathers (Mothers), do not provoke your children to anger but bring them up in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.  Eph. 6:4 NAS

I remember the teaching that states to “honor your father and mother and your days will be long” for by following this commandment you receive the first promise. A lesson all parent teach their children regardless if they follow Ephesians 6:4 or not. But when your mother’s discipline was in pain, her teachings were not of the Lord’s yet though it all you remain quiet. You honored her if for no other reason than she gave birth to you. You stayed quiet about home because others couldn’t believe or accept your truth. It’s a hard concept to understand anyone having anything but a loving mother. Yet the Lord questioned and answered that very possibility. The LORD answered, “Could a mother forget a child who nurses at her breast? Could she fail to love an infant who came from her own body? Even if a mother could forget, I will never forget you. Isaiah 49:15 CEV

As I look back, I used to mourn for what could never be. I mourned for love that I never received. But one day, I realized I wasn’t motherless, but blessed.

Even if my father and mother abandon me, the LORD cares for me. Psalm 27:10 CBS

The bible states that in the absence of parents the Lord would care for you, and He will. Throughout one’s life, God sends mothers to guide and lead at different points in your life. The woman in your neighborhood whose house welcomed you with hugs and cakes. The teacher that made that extra time to talk you whenever you felt lost.  The coach that encouraged you to succeed and continue to root for you even when there was no one else rooting. The church momma that gently guided you when started going left instead of right. The Lord cared for you by bringing numerous mothers in your life at the time you need them.

Yes, there is nothing like a mother’s love from the woman who is responsible for bringing you into this world. It is a bond that one would think impossible to be absent, destroyed or neglected. Unfortunately many children this Mother’s Day look on Mother’s Day in disdain. If you happen to know one of those children, hug and let them know they are loved. As God spoke to Jeremiah, He also is speaking to you. “Jeremiah, I am your Creator, and before you were born, I chose you to speak for me to the nations.”Jeremiah 1:5 CEV  The Lord continues the tell us has He stated: “I will bless you with a future filled with hope–a future of success, not of suffering.” Jeremiah 29:11 CEV  

The Lord has covered you through your childhood, He gave you testimony to share and assists others. He has given you a recipe to create your own family knowing all item that will allow you to flourish as a loving parent.

This Mother’s Day to the motherless child, I beseech you to forgive and let go of what could never be. I request for you to leave your past only taking the lessons learned. To become that mother you never had. To care for children from your womb or others that they will call you Blessed.


When you Write your Vision…You have clear directions

Are you are following your Vision as it is Written?

As as the 2nd month of the second quarter begins I started looking at everything on my calendar and realize everything isn’t speaking to my Purpose! Last year a took a position that held promise to take me the next level. Though I know nothing comes easy as you are growing but it shouldn’t steal my joy or bother me. There are other factors that also is playing my decision, the immediate need for my sons, my current health challenge. But the main thing is that it is taking me away from what I am called to do most.

God has placed books inside of me to write. Since the New Year, the time I would write has been occupied with other demands, As of May 7, I will tender my resignation letter. The Rate of Return (ROR) in some many ways did not make up for the cost of what I was paying.

It is important that we truly test every opportunity present before us. Yes, it may seem like a good path, it may even have many pluses that seems to benefit our goal. But if the ROR is less than the cost of what we are called to do, is it worth it? The spirit within speaks to us, and often we listen on the first whisper and other times we have to learn a direct lesson on why this wasn’t the route for us to take.

I received some good contacts  I have earned valuable connections, but in the vision that God has given me, this opportunity was given as a test, and after 6 months of struggling, after and praying for the past couple of weeks and days, after allowing God to speak into the plain writing of my vision, I know where I should be and what I should be doing.

Today, I leave these tidbits with you:

1) Test every opportunity against the true vision that God has given you.

2) Make sure the cost of your time is less than the Rate of Investment. The things that we do, may take not only monetary factor into consideration but it will also takes up valuable time we can’t get back.  Whatever we do we should ensure a plentiful return for our purpose.

3) WRITE YOUR VISION!  For months my vision was only in my head. Every time I set down to type it, I was distracted. Until one Sunday I set down with a pen and paper and wrote the vision that God has given to me for this year. The clarity that became evident spoke volumes to my spirit and lifted the pressure I could not identify,

“Write the vision; make it plain on tablets, so he may run who reads it.” Habakkuk 2:2

We can’t truly operate within our vision if we never write it out. If I have written when I first tried back in January or even last December, I would have seen I have been walking in my understanding.

Now following the written vision and plan, I will continue to pray for God to increase my territory that I may serve His children, His precious daughter as He leads me.

Write your Vision and Listen to the guidance of Holy Spirit and watch your tent expand greatly.


I learned Strength in 2017 to accept that it’s My time to Soar in 2018!


2017 has thought me many lessons. With all that I been through the last 5 years, didn’t think there could be anything left to attack me. But I started this year under a heavyweight. A weight meant to break and destroy me. And as the days continue the weight grew heavier. The biggest lesson was I was not built to break. That as long as I put my faith in Jesus, that He would bring me through each and every dark and painful night that I faced. Yes, I received some bruises along the way, but I wasn’t destroyed, crushed or silenced.

If asked, I would have never thought I could have survived the varies stumbling blocks and pitfalls that I have faced in my life. But at the end of 2017, I not only survived, I overcame each storm by the Blood.

Now in 2018, it is my time to Soar. My time to tell my story, my time to set the record straight about what each of us is truly borne to do. As I look for guidance from my Heavenly Father, I know this is truly my time to break every negative stereotype and ceiling that was created to hold me back and silenced me.

An awesome woman of God shared Ecclesiastes 3, A time for everything, to close out this year pray meeting. I truly believed that there is a specific time for every activity in life. And my time is now.


It is time for the ministry that God has a place in you to be born. Just it is time for playing small to die.


It time to uproot all the negativity that has been fed to you as truth and time to plant seeds of God’s word of healing, abundance, and prosperity.


It’s time to kill off every vine that has attached itself to strangle and entangle you. Use this time heal the wounds that were created to kill with God’s soothing balm.


It is time to tear down every wall and partition that shut out the light of God’s word and build a gate that separate one from the destruction of the evil in the world. A gate to the sanctuary of God’s grace and peace.



The time to weep and mourn is no more, now we will dance and laugh at the glorious blessing of God’s love.


Time has come to leave the scattered directions of others behind, to refrain from embracing that which was not meant for you. Embrace the promises of God and gather your arsenal of weapons in your heart of God’s word.


The time has come to give up on hopes and dreams that have led to misery and discouragement, to throw away that which brings no value to your being or purpose. Search for the truth of God’s word and keep His promises ever before you.


Now tear up every judgment used against you and mend the brokenness of a dying people all around you.


Silence the noise around you that may hear the quiet whisper of instruction and direction, that when the time comes to speak, you will deliver the very word that God has given you to nourish on.


The time of war is upon us to destroy each weapon sent to fill this world with self-destructive hate. But the time has come for every believer to share with a dying world the love of God and the peace that God can only give to those that call on the same of His son, Jesus Christ of Nazareth.



Faithfully Serving an Awesome God

I serve an awesome God.
One who sends shelter in the midst of a raging storm.
One who sends prayer warriors out of the blue that prays over you and your family in such a way that they give confirmation to things that they aren’t even aware of.
One who gives you a vision three years ago and bring everything together to supply all your needs at this point and time.
One who has allowed your spirit align with a coach to mentor you where you are at. A coach that gave an awesome prayer this morning about Faith. The one thing left for me to cling to this morning.
Faith sustains when all else fails!


Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. (Hebrew 11:1) Thank you Greatness for those words. Faith is knowing that the words I received in my spirit this weekend and even this morning is living proof that God’s words will not return to him void. That the motion of the Holy Spirit this morning is the result of the spiritual battles being fought on my behalf. As when Elisha spoke in 2 Kings 6:16 to his servant, “Don’t be afraid,” …“Those who are with us are more than those who are with them.” I rest in knowing those very words holds true today. For the army of Lord has encamped around me and my boys and are protecting us from every fiery arrow, and we will not be consumed.  
I rest and believe in the Man that created the universe out of nothing except His word. I trust and believe this battle is not mine but the Lords. I will not sit in the council of disbelievers nor will seek revenge on those being used to stop and disqualify my calling and purpose. I will trust the Lord with my whole soul knowing that I will not be crushed, nor broken! But as the victory will belong to the Lord, He will elevate me to the mountain tops.
Through it all, I will trust in Jesus and power of His might. I will trust in the Lord through this journey walk,  serving and praising Him at all times. 

Psalm 91

Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust.”

Surely he will save you
    from the fowler’s snare
    and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his feathers,
    and under his wings you will find refuge;
    his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night,
    nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
    nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side,
    ten thousand at your right hand,
    but it will not come near you.
You will only observe with your eyes
    and see the punishment of the wicked.

If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
    and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
    no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
    to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
    so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
    you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
    I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
    I will be with him in trouble,
    I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
    and show him my salvation.”

Praying to the Next Level

The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective. As one travel to their next level, they should continue to see the will of the Lord. 

As I stand looking back over the works that have been done over the past 22 months I stand in awe at the mighty and loving hands of my Lord and Savior. Many would question my description of the past months if they knew my story, but through it all, I have been blessed. Through every phase, God’s mighty hand has guided and protected me and my boys.  As my petition to find a house of Eli to care for my oldest son can to fruition, though my heart was heavy I knew it was the best place for him to be. To see the progress and growth he has made during this time is just amazing.

As I migrated from the Bronx to Queens, though the I will not lie it has been painful at times, but even through the pain we have been blessed and protected. The doors that have been closed, the healing the have taken place and the lessons learned were all pertinent to where he is taking me.

Earlier this year with when I went West instead of East for a spin, God continued to protect and provide for me until I was back on proper course. And since the End of January, God has made provision for all of our needs.  So why as I embarked on this next phrase should I take control?

Let’s Pray

Heavenly Father, I love you, because You have loved me before my first request for a hug. You have loved me when it was stated that I would not live. You have loved me when everyone thought I would mentally and physically crippled for life. You have loved me when my family has abused and/or forsaken me. You love me through trials and tribulations, errors and growing pains. Lord, I thank You and praise You.

Lord forgive me when I asked You to guide and went on a head You. Lord forgive me when my words haven’t aligned with the Word. Lord forgive me when love and kindness were overshadowed by hurt and disappointment. Lord as I continue to look toward the prize, expectantly waiting for Your promise to come to pass, I continue to surrender my will over to You.

Lord thank you for providing for my family as we travel this journey of life. I asked for your continuous to guide me to the place where You would have us call home. You know our need and our petition. I asked that for Your will to be done and plan to be manifested in the coming days. 

In Jesus Namen Amen


Life Plans thwarted by Reality

Each month this year I said I would at least make a post to stay active and relevant to what was going on around me and in my life. However, the first two months of this year has been anything as planned or expected. Goals and plans that were planned out for the first quarter which was superseded by a reality that couldn’t be thwarted.

Since the start of this year, I came to understand that nothing happens without a reason and purpose. That God is in control no matter what goes down. But regardless of what does happens, no matter good or bad, God will work everything out for those that calls on His name.

If someone else traveled the road I have been on these last two years at least, it would have caused them to give up or escaped through drugs or alcohol or commit suicide. I will confess, I am glad I have a strong belief that my Heavenly Father will provide in spite of where I am at because if I was a drinker I am not sure even the 12 step program would have pulled me back.

I have learned what it means to be forsaken by one’s parent that despises the very breath you breathe and the child of your womb. Yet instead of feeling hate and being angry, I realize that her hate is hers. There are issues in her life from childhood that has ruled how she lived the majority of her 78+ years of life. Situations that has festered and turned her into an angry, bitter woman that could never love or accept her own children or grandchildren as a gift instead of a commodity to be used and control. As I walked away this final time, I leave with prayers she finds the peace and happiness she craves. However, I know money and property will never give her what she seeks nor could control others. I pray for her soul and her mind. But I can not and will not allow the demonic spirit that has controlled her life, control or rule mine. The Word of God states in Psalm 37:25 “I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread.” A word I can testify to as she closed her doors before me. No matter where I found myself, I can state that the blessing of God has preceded me and His favor has been upon me.

The road I am on is difficult, nor do I take it for granted. In all truth, I have been blessed in my lack as when I was in plenty. I can say I understand Peter’s words when he said in Philippians 4:10-13, “I rejoiced greatly in the Lord that at last, you renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you were concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well-fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.  I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”

How can I sing the songs of the Lord while in a foreign land? There is no land my Lord can not be, no place He can not meet me. So in a crystal castle to a room to that gives me shelter, I will sing praises to my Lord, I will sing of His goodness and loving mercies. I will glorify his name in all that I do. I will share his wondrous work with all that cares to listen.

The question that has pestered me most, besides when will once again view life from the mountain top, is how do I bring God’s healing to the bleeding hearts that are around me. Nothing just happens and where I am isn’t just happenstance. God ordain me to be where I am today, for His purpose of teaching and stretching me, but more so to be used to share His word with the lost and misguided. Be careful what you pray for! Especially be careful when you tell Aba Father here am I to be used by Him. You will never know the path that He will take you. (For those that understand this sidebar: I believe that our Father has lost His mind in but how I am so thankful in spite of that He has me on His mind). For years I have known the calling on my life and at one point thought I knew what direction my life would take to allow me to walk in said calling. But what I thought was the straight path has had various streams, lakes, and rivers that must be travel before I am prepared to reach the ocean. Paths that has strengthened my skills and understanding to serve as an Authentic witness.

I once told a group of young ministers speaking on life, many that I could have been my sons, you may know the Word, and the Lord can use to speak into someone’s situation, but until you have a personal testimony, you are only a speaker. TD Jakes stated one of his sermons and echoed just today by a friend. You can’t minister to me about something you never experienced. You can’t understand my pain if you never experience pain. In my 48 years of life, I have survived and overcame many obstacles. Obstacles that should have killed me years ago if God didn’t carry through many of those storms, giving me the experience and understanding to speak to others who find themselves on similar paths

Soon I will share this journey, but I will say this when James wrote in verse 5:16b (My favorite New Testament Book) “The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. (KJV)” He meant “The prayer of a person living right with God is something powerful to be reckoned with. (MSG). For the prayers have carried me, sustain me and is pushing me into my greatness. The teaching has given me wisdom needed for such a time.

I will continue to allow Christ to take the wheel and pilot my journey into His abundance for me. I will continue to walk obediently as the spirit guides me ministering and encouraging others to hold on and believe a change is coming. I know I need to step further from the pool of fear to reach others that need to hear my story and current journey.

A change in the wind is coming, with it, the blessing will flow.


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